A Friend
I realized there are so many levels the word “friend” can go under.
Hi Friend: A Friend who you see here and there, say hi and wondering how the other is doing just cus its the “normal” thing to do.
Nosey/Fake Friend: A Friend who you know very well. Had a few conversations with, exchanged secrets here and there. But really only talks to you when they notice something wrong with you and that’s the only time they wanna have a deep conversation with you, just so when they tell other people they can seem like the know everything about you
Awkward Friend: A Friend that you used to be hecka cool and close with then something happened along the way. So then they turn into a Hi Friend.
True Friend: Almost a Best Friend but not really. Cares about you and not just to know information about you. Tell you secrets and is honest with you. But when you need them most of the time they aren’t there or is busy with other things and tellls you “I’m really sorry but ttyl” and all you can say back is “That’s okay. Bye”
Then you have the Best Friend
Best Friend: The one person that knows EVERYTHING about you. That can read you even when you haven’t said anything. That doesn’t wait for you to contact them. And spends at LEAST 10 min each day to see how your day was and how you’re doing. That when you have the worst day of your life you know that you’re best friend is willing to talk to you. The person that whatever you tell them they will NEVER judge you. Someone you can tell youre deepest darkest secret and not regreat later in life. That person will love you for who you are and not what they what you to be.
I’ve just been questioning my friends fall into which category. I ignored the friends that cared about me and focused on the ones that are really fake. Honestly, no really stands out right now. Mahybe I’m blind but writing this no one is put under the Best Friend one, just mostly the True Friend level. Idk why I’m writing this, it’s super dumb of me to. I just had a bad day today I guesss.
Just venting…
Can my day get any worse?
I mean I had an usual day today. Went to my classes, listened to the teacher say blah blah blah, went home, then church. But throughout this day people can just find ways to annoy me and make me feel useless. I do my part and still get in trouble. I don’t do my part I’ll still be in trouble but that part I expect it. I do most of the things and you don’t do for your part and we both get in trouble. Making me look bad. You act like it’s okay and it’s Whatevers but not to me. I don’t wanna look bad cus you didn’t do your part. Then. The thing I didn’t do I get in even more trouble. Usually people can get away but nope not me. I try to ignore it and move on and my friend says something great to me and me thinking my day can just turn around but nope someone else gotta crush my hope. And even worse I thought I was able to see one of my childhood friend so I was making sure they could come tomorrow but they said they weren’t allowed to anymore. I mean I ain’t gonna lie I was upset but not super upset. If you know me I play around but turns out you don’t me cus you took me seriously giving me attitude. I said fine whatever. Goodnight and that’s why you wanna talk to me. Out of all my friends i thought you were the one who understands me. Ive notice Between me and my friends I always have to start the conversation and I’m ridiculously getting tired of it all. Am I the one only who cares to check up on you? Seems like it. I can’t say that I have someone that knows me inside and out. I wanna say I do but lately I don’t feel like someone knows me super duper ridiculously inside AND out without me even talking to them. No one pops into my head. You may know most things about me but answer this. You know what I have thought of doing lately. If you know the answer
Holla at me and tell me why I feel like it. Don’t know the answer? proves you don’t know me and never took the time to get to know me inside and out. After all this happening I really don’t wanna go tomorrow. Mkay done venting.
OMG
Today may have been thee best day of my senior year so far! :D :D :D
shayhunnyy:
Oh my gosh….
HAHAHAHA!! I just had to reblog
It’s not like me…
It’s not like me to take my anger out on tumblr but this time it has gotten way too far where I can’t just ignore it. I hate how your Freakin annoying every night. I tell you what you do wrong yet you don’t listen. You call me dumb IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIEND and you don’t care. You have no respect for me at all. Yes you have the brains to get the grades but that’s all your brain is good for cus I see no common sense in you whatsoever. And, i hate how i cant turn to anyone about my problems. I hate how I can’t turn to anyone anymore cus their busy. I mean I understand you have things to do with your life but I thought since I have more than one best friend at least someONE would be there but it’s hard to see that. It sucks knowing that you don’t anyone at all to turn to. ESP when you really need someone to comfort you…..k I’m done venting.
Aight, so I FINALLY had time to vlog about my 17th Birthday….
Dude, I think this had been the best birthday so far. haha. I had like a birthday week like no lie. mkay, Friday (Nov 18) best birthday celebrated during school. I got mini cupakes (thank you Kelli) and rice crakers (thank you @charlola). Saturday went roller skating with Binhi&Kadiwa at San Ramon and then said hi to “JESUS!” ate ice cream and then said bye to “JESUS!” (@sammwith2mms,@unicornitarianism,@jellylove,@lisalove). On Sunday (Nov 20) just went to church and during the Binhi Meeting I got Sour Patch kids! Woot! (thanks @lindseywomangale). Monday went to church at night and attended visitations. (@thirteen-thirteen) prayed for me and Kuya John. And then I came out of the CWS hall and (@ellohahremaye,@hanshanshanshans,@yuss,@mishelyyy,@chinnihc) sang happy birthday to me in many different tones of voices. It was B-E-A-utiful! And then Tuesday, DANG. Haha, never been to SF that late before. I ate at Sanraku and got some gelato and then headed to twin peaks. AMAZING SITE. All the lights were lit, looked hecka pretty. Thank you to @braddaboo, @behappybutneversatisfied, @hanshanshanshans,@Cram,@ikelmayulgenciofaypub,@mishelyyy for coming out and celebrating my birthday with me and even more thank you to @unicornitarianism&@thirteen-thirteen for making this night possible! J Wednesday Joseph came over and dropped off a cake that my “TRUST ME!” Buddy made for me! Thursday had service and after service Cortez and Del Rosario came over. Ate turkey and everyone sang happy birthday to me then. Haha. Then Alec made me go with her, her dad and her uncle to go black Friday shopping. OMG…never doing that again. Went shopping at Great Mall 1-5 AfreakinM. And didn’t buy anything AND for a bonus, the first store me and alec went to a girl threw up. How lovely. -_____- Friday went to Tracy and hung out with mom’s side of the family and saw @aye-bigayle. Saturday was able to be a couch potato (YES!) and then Sunday went to church and then after went to Manor Bowl and then ate ice cream at San Leandro. Super cool, I got a bowling from manor bowl. SOMEONE told them it was my birthday and up to this day I still don’t know who that person is. So can someone please tell me if you ratted out my name to them. Lol. At the ice cream store near the end everyone sang happy birthday and told me to say a speech while dancing. So I said I’m thankful for the stars and the sky while doing cat-daddy :P and when we all had to say goodbyes someone had the idea to cinnamon roll me. I never felt so loved by hecka people. Haha. But @ikelmayulgenciofaypub wasn’t able to save the video, so now I have to just remember it through my bad memory. Awesome. Haha. Thanks to @nicolieee,@chinnihc,@hanshanshanshans,@argonots,@mishelyyy,@miadiarrhea,@ikelmayulgenciofaypub,@yuss @ellohahremaye and others who don’t have a tumblr for coming out! Thanks to everyone again for the best birthday ever!!!(…so far….haha) [btw, I’m expecting next year to be even more awesome guys…=P]
[@ikelmayulgenciofaypub-YES! I was able to post a picture of you and you aren’t smiling! BOOYAH! MUWAHAHAH X) ]
ikelmayulgenciofaypub:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NARIEL MUWAHAHAHA
Thanks m’am! Man, you would choose the ugly pictures of me……haha
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